Did you really love me
Did you really care
Do you care about how I feel
You said you loved me
But was it true
All you did was play with my emotions
Why do you have to cause me so much pain
I feel like you never really cared
You told me you'd never hurt me
But it wasn't true
So the hell with you.
I care about you so much
More then you know
But yet you have a girlfriend
I'd give up anything to be with you
I just wish I'd have a chance with you
But I know it will never happen
I`m depressed when you're not around
Everytime you are around I`m happy
Why can't I see it will never be
20 years down the road will you remember me
Or will you just forget about me
I thought this was what I wanted too
So why is there so much pain
I wonder did you really care
I hope you are happy now
Because I`m miserable
I thought our love would live forever
Two and a half years goes down the drain
It hurts so bad
You never really wanted to get back together, did you?
I wished upon a star
And there you were
I wished for a guy
That was loving, caring, sweet & so much more
But most of all
I wished for a guy that loved me for me
And my wish came true
The day I found you.
Sometimes it feels like noone`s there,
Sometimes it feels like noone cares,
Its like everyone pretends to like me,
When they really don`t,
People say I`m pretty & cool,
When actually I`m ugly & a fool.
When I was going out with a certain someone
I thought I was happy
And I thought he loved me
Eventhough he was always a dick to me
I still believed he loved me
He just used me & cheated on me
And was a dick to me
He broke my heart
Then 11 months down the road
I found you
I never knew how unhappy I was
Until the day I met you
This feeling for you
Is way beyond words
I can`t even describe it
I promised myself I wouldn`t fall in love again
But I have
I want to tell you how I feel
But I`m afraid of losing you
I think i`m fallin in love with you
But i don`t know wat to do
Because i`ve been in love before
And i don`t wanna lose you
Everyone thinks i`m a fool
I`ve only known you for a couple of months
But I feel like i`ve known you for more
I`ve never been so happy in my life
Until i found you
Your totally different from the others
You actually make me smile
I`ve never had this many feelings
For any guy before
Please tell me wat your thinkin
And if you still want to be with me
Because all i know is
I just want us to be.
Break my bones as fast as you can
I`ll stitch them together with one single hand
Blood dripping from the ceiling
Demands crawling up the walls
The time has come for hell to control all
Go outside what do you see
It`s raining blood
The living dead is walking the streets
My death is near
I can smell and taste it
But I do not FEAR
For we all have to die sometime
My blood is coming out of me
It`s dripping down the side of me
Soon I will be dead
Hell is pulling me closer and closer
Til my breathe is getting shorter
The pain is killing me
But I love it
And now I`m dead.
Can you show me
Something beautiful
Cause I`ve never seen
Any beauty
Not in me
Not in anything else
Everything is ugly to me
Including me
I am ugly
You are too
There is no beauty
In this world
I don`t like the day
Only the night
What is the point to wake
Only to see the light
So someone kill me now
Just stab me with a long sharp knife
It would be the same pain I`m feeling right now
I love pain
Yet people hate it
When I cut myself
Instead of me doing it myself
Why don`t you help me out
Just kill me
Everytime I attempt to
It doesn`t work out
What if I died today?
Would you care?
Cause it feels like you don't care,
And If I killed myself,
Would you feel the pain I feel?
Cause your always yelling about what I wear,
Because Im gothic,
You treat me different,
You try to change me,
You try to faze me,
Yes people talk,
But they don't even know me,
I don't care what they think,
I don't need them anyway,
I'll just go on living my way,
But still you treat me the same,
It's all the same everyday,
You yell about everything,
Everything I do is wrong,
I gets really old,
You make me feel like nothing,
Everyday I feel lower,
and Lower,
Why are you always yelling at me?
M
Can you show me
Something beautiful
Cause I`ve never seen
Any beauty
Not in me
Not in anything else
Everything is ugly to me
Including me
I am ugly
You are too
There is no beauty
In this world
I don`t like the day
Only the night
What is the point to wake
Only to see the light
So someone kill me now
Just stab me with a long sharp knife
It would be the same pain I`m feeling right now
I love pain
Yet people hate it
When I cut myself
Instead of me doing it myself
Why don`t you help me out
Just kill me
Everytime I attempt to
It doesn`t work out
Break my bones as fast as you can
I`ll stitch them together with one single hand
Blood dripping from the ceiling
Demands crawling up the walls
The time has come for hell to control all
Go outside what do you see
It`s raining blood
The living dead is walking the streets
My death is near
I can smell and taste it
But I do not FEAR
For we all have to die sometime
My blood is coming out of me
It`s dripping down the side of me
Soon I will be dead
Hell is pulling me closer and closer
Til my breathe is getting shorter
The pain is killing me
But I love it
And now I`m dead.
I think i`m fallin in love with you
But i don`t know wat to do
Because i`ve been in love before
And i don`t wanna lose you
Everyone thinks i`m a fool
I`ve only known you for a couple of months
But I feel like i`ve known you for more
I`ve never been so happy in my life
Until i found you
Your totally different from the others
You actually make me smile
I`ve never had this many feelings
For any guy before
Please tell me wat your thinkin
And if you still want to be with me
Because all i know is
I just want us to be.
When I was going out with a certain someone
I thought I was happy
And I thought he loved me
Eventhough he was always a dick to me
I still believed he loved me
He just used me & cheated on me
And was a dick to me
He broke my heart
Then 11 months down the road
I found you
I never knew how unhappy I was
Until the day I met you
This feeling for you
Is way beyond words
I can`t even describe it
I promised myself I wouldn`t fall in love again
But I have
I want to tell you how I feel
But I`m afraid of losing you
Sometimes it feels like noone`s there,
Sometimes it feels like noone cares,
Its like everyone pretends to like me,
When they really don`t,
People say I`m pretty & cool,
When actually I`m ugly & a fool.
I wished upon a star
And there you were
I wished for a guy
That was loving, caring, sweet & so much more
But most of all
I wished for a guy that loved me for me
And my wish came true
The day I found you.
20 years down the road will you remember me
Or will you just forget about me
I thought this was what I wanted too
So why is there so much pain
I wonder did you really care
I hope you are happy now
Because I`m miserable
I thought our love would live forever
Two and a half years goes down the drain
It hurts so bad
You never really wanted to get back together, did you?
I care about you so much
More then you know
But yet you have a girlfriend
I'd give up anything to be with you
I just wish I'd have a chance with you
But I know it will never happen
I`m depressed when you're not around
Everytime you are around I`m happy
Why can't I see it will never be
Current Residence: Indiana Favourite genre of music: psychopathic Favourite style of art: Gothic Wallpaper of choice: psychopathic Skin of choice: tan Favourite cartoon character: cartman Personal Quote: Fuck the world
Today Aaron & me are movin to New Albany. So I`ll live in the city now. We got an apartment close to his work. I don't know how it is goin to be to live in the city. I mean I lived in the city when I was younger but I don't remember. Well got to go. I still have to finish packing the rest of my stuff. Bye everyone.
Well me & aaron have been dating for 5 months now on Oct. 6th it will be 6 months. The 3rd longest relationship I`ve had. He is the sweetest guy I`ve met. I fell in love with him. I love him very much. I quit cutting myself for him. Which is weird cuz i wouldn't for gage or ryan. Aaron makes me so happy. Aaron is a manager at Arnies now. He turned 18 this month. Soon me & him are going to get a place together. Well looks like I`m staying in Indiana. I don't really think I could leave this state thu I mean all my friends & family (besides my best friend, Jessi) live in Indiana. Aaron quit school his 2nd day.Well guess I better go.
Well I found out somethings today. My ex Ryan lied to me for 2 1/2 years. He wasn't a virgin when we meet & he had sex with a few girls before me 1 was JoAnne Brooke. That really hurts that he'd lie for 2 1/2 years to me. Then he cheated on me also. He told someone I was a slut & nasty & all. He also told them that I was his woman & that he was going to break me & Aaron up. So I think that's who started the rumors at school. Then they told me something funny. They said when he saw him he said I saw you're girlfriend's, oh my bad your ex, body & it is fine how could you dump that. Then I was told that Donald used to have a crush on me & s
Hi Amber remember me?
friends forever
I'm happy things are going better for you in this life
I am very happy for you
I shall be able to comment more to you and others on my deviantart list in the summer
*Summer*
I will be slightly busy til May sometime with my Graphic Design classes. in my 2nd semester but I will comment on everyone's stuff more once summer hits (the friend kind)
P.S. I want to become a better friend to you.........I know that takes time.
Btw, justin and I will be moving pretty much after I graduate. We really want nothing to do with indiana anymore. We will tell a select few where we are going.
Hey Sis, sorry how things went with Ryan. I really hope you two will get back together. I tried for like a week to get a hold of you but you were with Bobby. Ugh, school sucks let me tell ya. Oh thanks, I totally forgot about the 3 dollas lol. Justin and I are doing pretty well. We haven't really got in a fight for about 2 and a half weeks, one of our longest records since our 6 month anniversary. This month will be our 1 year and a half anniversary. I'm kinda excited. Longest relationship. Been talking to annelise (sp) and dalilah (sp?), they are funny as hell. Oh yeah, did you hear about me taking krista to the office for sexual harrasment? That was sooooo wrong. I coulda puked or cried. I wasn't really sure which one to do. I hate north H. full of dikes. I think paula will be moving away which is good. I just hope she moves into another country. Actually another planet doesn't sound to bad either. Next year I will be a senior. I don't know if I will be happy about that or not. Last year of school. Then after that all my friends will move away and I will be bored to death! Justin is working still which is good. He is supposed to be getting a raise. Well I think mom is wanting to use the computer and I still have to do a report. Well, talk to ya lata.
Love ya sis.